klisemfg Chapter 156 Heartbreaking
Chapter 156 Heartbreaking
Siyi was really not in the mood. Jiang Yan's sudden appearance had completely disrupted her thoughts. She was in a mess and was very worried about her father in the hospital operating room.
If Zheng Muyan hadn't insisted on dragging her over, she really wouldn't have wanted to come out. Now that he said so, she naturally agreed.
Zheng Muyan called over a waiter and asked them to pack up everything they had just ordered.
While waiting, he glanced at Siyi across from him and finally spoke, "Siyi, I was too abrupt today, dragging you out like this. Actually, there's something I wanted to tell you..."
Siyi absentmindedly hummed in response, "What is it?"
Zheng Muyan could tell that she was absent-minded. He knew that it might not be the right time to say some things, but he was afraid that if he didn't say them now, he might never have the chance to say them again.
He hesitated briefly, then finally said in one go, "Siyi, actually I've never told you where I'm from, who my family is, my family... it's actually very complicated."
Siyi looked up blankly at Zheng Muyan's words, opened her mouth, and asked, "...What?"
"My father is..."
He paused abruptly, then leaned slightly forward and whispered a name in her ear. Siyi's eyes widened in disbelief. Zheng Muyan had anticipated this, but instead smiled gently, sat down, and continued, "However, I'm just an illegitimate child, so I've always been unwilling to go back. But this time, my father's health has deteriorated, and I have to go back. Siyi, I don't want to deceive you. You know my feelings for you. All these years, I've been waiting for you. I wanted to wait until you'd done everything you wanted to do before confessing my feelings… Of course, I was also too confident. I thought you understood my feelings. I felt that no one was better or more suitable for you than me, but I was wrong. Whether you don't know or don't want to know, I have to tell you formally now."
He looked into her eyes, his gaze sincere.
Every word struck Siyi's heart like a pile driver. "Siyi, I really like you. Whether you like me or not, I will be by your side and protect you. Even if you don't need it, that's my own business. My mother went through so much trouble to get into that family, and now they want me to go back to take care of my father and marry a woman they've arranged for me. I don't even know what will happen when I go back. But Siyi, I will never marry that woman. I will come back to find you."
Siyi was a little dazed. Zheng Muyan had said so much, and she roughly understood it all. His family was not simple, he was an illegitimate child, and according to him, he was going back to get married, but he didn't want to get married. He... liked her.
Although she had long known about his feelings for her, she was still caught off guard when he said it so seriously.
For a moment, I was stunned and didn't know what to say.
Fortunately, Zheng Muyan's phone rang at that moment. Siyi saw him glance at the phone number, then walk away with a serious expression to answer the call.
She watched Zheng Muyan's tall figure standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window not far away. She bit her lip, beckoned a waiter for paper and pen, wrote a line, and then got up and left.
Siyi walked out of the restaurant in a daze, her head still throbbing. A voice deep inside told her she should go back to the hospital, but her feet moved in the opposite direction.
She didn't know where she was going. Her mind was in complete turmoil. There was a voice shouting at her, but she didn't know what it was saying. So many things had happened all day.
Looking at the clothes she was wearing, she suddenly remembered that she and that man had been making love passionately in the apartment the night before, but so much had happened in the blink of an eye...
Was it a joke played by God, or was everything predetermined?
Why treat her like this?
If it was truly destined to be this way, why did you let her meet and have her interactions with Jiang Yan in the first place?
Why did you let her have that brief but heartwarming memory with him...?
She had no idea that he already held memories of her, memories that could not be erased, and now she was being forced to confront them...
Her mother, his father, and her father...
How did everything turn out like this?
She had never considered herself such a weak person. She always believed she could live a remarkable life because she was Ye Siyi, the daughter of Ye Xiongming and Guan Fengru. But now she realized she was just an ordinary person, weak and helpless, and in her moments of sorrow, she wished she were dead. Now, all of this made her lack the courage to face anything.
The person Jiang Yan Hui couldn't face wasn't just her father...
She stood at the entrance of a shopping mall. Surprisingly, the mall was already air-conditioned for this time of year. Standing at the entrance, the cold air blew out, hitting her trouser legs with a chilling blast that seemed to penetrate her very being. She felt every pore on her body open up, as if the cold air had seeped straight into her heart. Looking up, she saw a large screen across the street showing a concert. She recognized the singer: Ronald Cheng. Back in college, she'd occasionally heard a few of his classic songs.
On the big screen, Ronald Cheng wiped the sweat from his forehead, gripped the microphone, and said, "Next, I'll be performing an old song, 'Promise Not to Love You.' Do you all like it?"
The audience screamed that they liked it, but Siyi was taken aback. "Promise Not to Love You" was a song she often heard when she was in college. Was this song really that old?
"The love was so clear, yet I accepted the separation. I only have the right to miss you. I'm too busy being sad; love has already seeped into my breath, existing only in my heart. Although I've tried so hard to forget, my heart hasn't agreed to give you up. I'm so sorry. I promised you I wouldn't love you anymore, but I've also promised myself..."
Siyi looked up at Ronald Cheng on the screen, who was singing passionately into a microphone, and found herself involuntarily singing along softly.
This song, at that moment, made her feel as if her heart was being torn apart.
"I promised to forget, but I keep remembering. It turns out my heart hasn't agreed to give you up. I'm so sorry. Although I promised you, I haven't promised myself... How can I really not love you..."
She felt a heart-wrenching pain; she never knew that a song could have such a profound impact, causing her tears to fall uncontrollably.
Someone once said that a true singer can sing into your heart, and she never believed it, but now she has to believe that Yi's singing comes from the heart.
Suddenly, Ronald Cheng on the screen changed his tone and began singing another song gently.
"I close my eyes and hold my breath, trying to temporarily disconnect from the world. I'm almost ready to stop thinking about you, but I hear my heart beating incessantly. I've allowed you to have the freedom of love back with me. I've allowed myself to bear this sorrow until dawn. I don't want to give up, but I deliberately allow it silently. I promise myself I'll never speak of my love for you, always thinking it will eventually fade away like a passing cloud. Loving you to the end has hurt me..."
I'm unwilling to give up, yet I deliberately allow it silently...
Siyi had endured all the grievances and pain of the day, and at this moment, it burst forth like a raging flood.
She bit her lip, her vision blurred, as if the whole world was veiled by a layer of gauze that she couldn't see or touch. At that moment, her wrist was grabbed forcefully, and she was still choking on her breath. When she turned around, she saw a very familiar man.
Jiang Yan followed the address Leng Xiyu gave her to the restaurant but didn't find her. Even Zheng Muyan was nowhere to be seen. She asked a waiter at the restaurant and learned that she had indeed been there, but had left early.
So we drove in that direction and sure enough, we saw her standing there alone, staring at the big screen, seemingly lost in thought.
He didn't know how to describe the feeling of seeing her standing there through the windshield. It was as if she were floating lightly in the air, her petite body seemingly able to be swept away by the wind at any moment, making it impossible for him to hold on to her...
That's the damn feeling!
This feeling made his whole body even more ruthless and sharp; every line on his body was hard, without a trace of softness.
The aura emanating from Jiang Yan was chilling. Seeing Jiang Yan like this made Si Yi, whose heart was already incredibly fragile, feel a strange unease; she just wanted to escape.
She struggled almost instinctively.
He couldn't help but take a step back, but this only added fuel to the fire for Jiang Yan. The more she resisted him, the less he felt he could hold onto her.
His long, slender eyebrows furrowed slightly, and without saying a word, he reached out and grabbed her, pulling her body towards him.
He held her tightly, leaving no room for anything, pressing her against his chest with force, as if he wanted to crush her.
Siyi's face was still streaked with tears of varying depths, but he held her tightly, making it difficult for her to breathe. She felt that Jiang Yan's hand, which was gripping her waist, seemed to have lost control, squeezing her tightly as if he wanted to stab her into his body.
"Jiang Yan returns..."
She was about to say something when he seemed to have a sudden, fierce urge. He lowered his head and seized her lips in a deep kiss, devoid of any gentleness. The kiss was violent and intense, leaving her no choice but to respond. Her body heaved, and she had no choice but to yield to him. In that instant, the fire of desire between them was almost palpable, a relentless advance until there was no way out.
Desire, as if it were about to arrive in the next second.
"Let go...you're hurting me..." Siyi finally couldn't help but whisper in pain, "Jiang Yanhui, you're hurting me..."