Chapter 264 Love is a Coward
Chapter 264 Love is a Coward
Fifty million to buy a hair clip.
She knew that Jiang Yanhui and Zheng Muyan were fighting over more than just that hairpin, but she didn't feel particularly happy.
She just felt uncomfortable, like she couldn't breathe.
It took her so much effort to escape from City A back then.
For the past five years, she has lived cautiously, never daring to stand out too much.
The cases I take on are all very ordinary ones, because I'm afraid of being too high-profile and attracting people I don't want to meet.
But fate just wouldn't let her go.
Five years have passed, and she was almost able to let go of the past, but then she ran into him here again.
Why? All she wants now is a peaceful life.
But why can't God hear such a small request?
With trembling hands, Siyi slowly leaned against the wall, her body slumping against it. She tilted her head back, her eyes stinging with tears.
She took a deep breath, reached out and covered her cheeks tightly, silently telling herself, what's there to cry about?
She has already endured even the most difficult days.
Now, no matter how much she does now, it's just walking the same path she's walked before, and she'll walk it even better than before.
She will never let her heart be hurt again.
Someone once said that if the mind is still, the person will not act rashly, and will not be harmed. But if the mind is agitated, the person will act rashly and will suffer serious injuries.
She had fallen in love, which is why she had been hurt so badly before.
She knew she no longer had the courage to fall in love, because she was too afraid of getting hurt.
She loved the man everyone said was handsome.
She fell in love with him, but then cruelly cut it off.
She only gave up after experiencing complete pain... How could she still dare to do that?
"Sisi..."
A deep male voice suddenly came from the other end of the corridor. Siyi hurriedly pulled herself out of her thoughts, her eyes still filled with too much loneliness and pain that she couldn't hide. She saw Jiang Yan's tall figure running towards her.
Her heart skipped a beat, and she instinctively turned around and pressed the elevator button beside her. The elevator stopped right on her floor, and the double doors slowly opened. She quickly stepped inside and pressed the close button hard. Just as the double doors were about to close, a pair of hands reached in. The elevator sensed this and reopened the double doors.
"Hey, why do you run away whenever you see me? You've been running for five years, haven't you had enough?"
Jiang Yan exhaled a breath of stale air, still clutching the hair clip she had bought for fifty million, and handed it to her, saying, "This is yours."
Siyi looked coldly at the hair clip. "This isn't mine. You should give it to someone else."
Now that he had entered the elevator, she naturally wanted to get out, but as soon as she finished speaking, her shoulder was pressed down, and Jiang Yan reached out her other hand and pressed the close button of the elevator.
The doors closed slowly again, and Siyi thought that now only the two of them were left in the elevator.
She felt flustered and anxious, and pushed him away forcefully, her tone impatient, "What exactly do you want?"
"That's what I should be asking you."
Jiang Yan looked at her cold face and felt a deep sense of helplessness. He sighed, his voice low and heavy, "Sisi, I know you're angry, you're blaming me, but so many years have passed, shouldn't you be done being angry by now? Even if you're not, shouldn't you let me explain? There are so many things I only learned later that were misunderstandings, but by the time I wanted to explain to you, you had already left. Now I've finally met you again, and you can't even give me an hour in exchange for five years?"
"Can you give me some time? At least let me explain."
He was practically begging.
She didn't seem particularly moved by what he said, and secretly wiped away the tears in her eyes.
In the end, he just laughed it off. "Jiang Yan Hui, you know how to explain yourself? I tried to explain to you back then, but you never believed me. What makes you think I need to hear your explanation now? When I said there was a misunderstanding, you didn't believe me. Now you say I need to believe you when there's a misunderstanding? You think too highly of yourself."
Siyi's words were sharp and barbed, and they instantly struck Jiang Yanhui's most fatal weakness. He knew that this woman could not possibly forget what happened five years ago so easily.
He did indeed do many things to hurt her during that period.
He ultimately deserved it. Sometimes, no matter how high you stand, there are still times when you are powerless. "I've said it before, I was wrong, but back then..."
"I don't want to hear it anymore."
Siyi gripped the hem of her skirt with both hands, her cold, detached voice interrupting him, "I really don't want to talk about the past anymore. Jiang Yanhui, please let me go, you know? The first two years after I left City A were terrible. I was terrified that someone would suddenly find me. I don't want to go back into the vortex of the past. But just when I was starting to feel like I could breathe again, you reappeared. Do you know that feeling? What's the point of you explaining what happened back then to me? I don't blame you, I'm not angry, I just don't want to know anymore."
Her words sounded like she was heartbroken and devastated. Jiang Yan felt her heart clench even tighter when she saw her like that.
If she still has a temper, he knows where to start.
But with her seemingly indifferent and desireless demeanor, where should he even begin?
He suddenly felt flustered and instinctively reached out to hug her, "No! You're angry!"
He's doomed for this woman.
He felt he had nowhere to retreat.
But he was Jiang Yan Hui, and he fell.
How could she be so lucid?
"You can blame me if you want, but you can't just say you don't want it anymore. Now that I've caught you, you can't escape even if you want to."
Saying such things is rather childish. Siyi has seen Jiang Yanhui before, who is full of roguish charm.
What kind of things hasn't he said to me before?
She really thought she was heartless, but now, being held like this by him and hearing him say these words, she suddenly felt a flutter in her heart.
She was startled by her own thoughts; how could she possibly have such feelings?
No!
She almost held her breath, forcefully pushing him away. Angered by her own feelings, she spoke to him fiercely, "Do you think you can just say whatever you want? Jiang Yan Hui, give up on that idea! I'm not yours, I never have been!"
Suddenly, her chin was grabbed, and the instant Siyi finished speaking, Jiang Yanhui lowered his head and fiercely sealed her lips with his.
Isn't she his? Not necessarily!
He cupped her face in his hands, his thin lips conveying an air of unwavering determination as he conquered her. At first, she resisted and struggled, but when he wanted her, she was no match for him.
She was already panting heavily in no time.
He looked at her flushed face with a half-smile, his slender fingers gently lifting her chin, his peach blossom eyes full of spring. "Baby, don't all women like to say one thing and mean another? I don't believe you have no feelings for me at all. Look how honest your body is. Don't you want to admit it?"
His words were like a thunderbolt, shattering all of Siyi's reason.
She snapped back to her senses and realized that she had fallen for his trick again. Especially seeing his smug and self-satisfied look, she was furious. Biting her lip, she instinctively retorted, "I'm just a normal woman. Of course I have needs too."
She deliberately ignored the shyness in her heart and said loudly, "That only proves that Mr. Jiang's skills are very good, and I am easily swayed by your emotions. That doesn't mean anything!"
Jiang Yan's mood, which had just eased, instantly plummeted to freezing point again.
This woman...
Does she have to go against me?
"Fine, then tell me, why are the two children named Ye Youbei and Ye Mengtian? Sisi, don't tell me that Youbei's name has nothing to do with me!" Jiang Yanhui gritted her teeth and said aggressively, "I can read!"
Siyi panicked and instinctively avoided his gaze.
At this moment, she truly regretted it, wondering why she had chosen such a name in the first place.
Actually, she knew it herself; when she chose the name, there was indeed a certain meaning behind it.
But little did she know she would meet him again in this lifetime.
Now that he's using this against her, she finds herself completely unable to refute him.
Isn't this like lifting a rock only to drop it on your own foot?
"You think too much."
She was thinking one thing, but of course she wouldn't admit it willingly. She stubbornly denied it, saying, "Nothing like that, Jiang Yan Hui. Can't you just let me go? Do I have to send you a lawyer's letter accusing you of sexual harassment before you'll learn your lesson?"
Jiang Yan saw the flicker in her eyes and knew she was just trying to change the subject. He deliberately didn't let her have her way. "Ye Siyi, you called me a coward back then, but you're the coward! Don't you dare admit it? You've never forgotten me, otherwise why would you have given birth to two children for me?"
"I'm just being a fool, okay?"
Siyi let out a low growl of embarrassment and anger, pushed him away, and pressed the elevator open button without thinking.
The elevator was so cramped that she could feel her fingers trembling. She couldn't face him like this anymore.
She needed to be alone for a while. This man was too aggressive, and she knew she couldn't be a match for him.
"Thank you for giving me two lovely children."
The moment she stepped out of the elevator, the man behind her didn't rush to pull her back this time. Instead, he gently said from behind her, "Sisi, this is what I really think. Although Tiantian can't speak, I will try to contact the best doctors. I know it's not easy for you to raise two children on your own all these years, and you've raised them very well. But I will fulfill my responsibilities as a father from now on."
Siyi paused for only a second, clutching her handbag tightly.
The moment the man's voice fell, she walked out of the elevator without looking back.
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The streetlights stretching into the distance resemble a row of antique lanterns, as if they are suspended in mid-air.
It was already evening, and the street corner was rather deserted, the white zebra crossing gleaming listlessly.
Siyi walked to the other side, put her hand on a tree, and then let out a deep breath.
Some things, whether you want to admit it or not, will always exist; some feelings, whether you want to forget them or not, will always be deeply rooted.
Footsteps approached from behind, and Siyi was startled, thinking it was Jiang Yanhui again. She turned around but found that it wasn't her.
Zheng Muyan stood under a streetlamp not far away, the orange-yellow light casting a long shadow of him. He smiled slightly at Siyi and took a few steps closer. "I was just out for a walk, I didn't expect to run into you."
Thinking back to what happened tonight, Siyi still softly said, "Senior, I'm sorry."
"Why are you apologizing to me?"
Zheng Muyan sighed and remained silent for a long time, gazing up at the starry sky with his hands in his pockets, exuding an indescribable loneliness and sorrow. Siyi knew she owed him far too much. Just as she was about to say something, Zheng Muyan spoke first, "Siyi, do you understand the awkwardness of being a child born out of wedlock?"
Siyi's heart skipped a beat. She really hadn't expected Zheng Muyan to bring up this topic. It was such a sensitive one, and she didn't know how to respond.
“I am an illegitimate child, I understand that feeling all too well. More than twenty years ago, my father never acknowledged me in front of outsiders. More than twenty years later, he finally allowed me to be recognized as a member of the family, but it was too late. Although we get along well now, there is always a barrier between us. To be honest, he also feels he owes me too much, which is why he agreed when I begged him to help you five years ago. Siyi, Youbei and Mengtian are Jiang Yanhui's children after all. Actually, I didn't approve of you giving birth to them five years ago, but when you knelt in front of me then, I knew that I was destined to lose in this life, not to Jiang Yanhui, but to Ye Siyi. Why did such a good woman like you fall in love with him? I have asked myself this countless times, and only today do I realize that love is something that cannot be found. You just love. If your heart is still alive, don't waste your youth anymore. How many more five-year periods do you have left to waste?”
He reached out and gently rubbed Siyi's cheek, his gaze filled with endless affection, but only he knew the heartache in his heart. "Siyi, I've protected you for so many years, and now my time has come. I'll be leaving for a while. Although I don't really believe that Jiang Yan will bring you any happiness, you chose this path yourself. I know that my being by your side has only made things more difficult for you."
One thing he had to admit was that Jiang Yan Hui wasn't indifferent to Si Yi; in fact, she was extremely attracted to her.
Even though he's a man, putting everything else aside, his jealousy is just too much.
"Alright, it's still a bit cold outside tonight, you should go home early, the two kids should be awake by now." He reached out and nudged her, his smile forced.
Siyi opened her mouth, "Senior brother, where...where are you going?"
Zheng Muyan said calmly, "There are some things I need to take care of for a while, but I will call you regularly."
"Brother, I..."
"Okay, stop talking."
Zheng Muyan turned around, his back to Siyi, his tone already somewhat stiff, "Siyi, you should leave now. If you don't leave, are you expecting me to hold you and not let go? I finally made up my mind, so you should leave now!"
Siyi understood what Zheng Muyan meant by those words.
Their relationship had been on and off for so many years, though neither of them ever explicitly acknowledged it again.
But she knew that she had wasted so much of his precious time.
He's now ready to let go, and to be honest, she's relieved.
Even though she felt sorry for him, she knew that saying anything more now would be pointless.
She bit her lip and whispered, "Senior brother, I'm sorry. I owe you so much. If there's a next life, I'll definitely repay you. Take care, senior brother."
He turned around and strode towards the hotel entrance.
The footsteps behind him grew fainter and fainter. Zheng Muyan reached out and cupped his face, feeling as if his heart was shattering into pieces with each step of those footsteps.
It can never be healed again, can it?
That was also a treasure he wanted to cherish for a lifetime.
She didn't give him a chance, so he had no choice but to back down.
I just hope, my darling, that you will be happy for the rest of your life.
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Siyi still didn't get a good night's rest. When she woke up the next day, Beibei was fiddling with his toothbrush and toothpaste in the bathroom. Siyi quickly went over to help her son get his things ready before turning to find Tiantian.
The change of clothes was already prepared. Tian Tian is a fairly independent girl, so Si Yi doesn't have to worry about them too much. She only needs to take them to school on weekdays and prepare good meals for them. After helping Tian Tian change her clothes and Bei Bei finished brushing his teeth, Si Yi said, "Mom will take you back to B City this afternoon. The teacher said you have a spring sports meet next week, so you can't miss it. We'll have to end our holiday early."
This reason was obviously just an excuse she made up; she couldn't possibly stay in this place any longer.
Just then, the doorbell rang. Siyi thought it was breakfast being delivered, but Beibei jumped up and said, "Mom, I'll go open the door!"
Siyi nodded, then braided Tiantian's hair into two braids. She craned her neck to look at the door, and saw Beibei tiptoe to open it. Then she heard him exclaim in surprise, "Uncle! It's you!"
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